Shame Weight, Different Day

I am today-years-old when I have an outloud chat with the weight around my middle. Put on, first, by pregnancy, then restored by wonky midlife hormones, the weight has become an egregious ball and chain. I want a divorce. These are the things I say aloud this morning, standing in my dimestore underpants and bra... Continue Reading →

Old Guard Summer Cocktail

Photo by Anthony Shkraba on Pexels.com Many years ago, in the early days of being a married person and an actor, I worked as a bartender at an exclusive golf club. While I'd driven past the front gates most of my life on Lawn Guyland, I'd never know its name or just how secretly kept... Continue Reading →

Excerpt

I live in a place where people frequently talk about leaving. I work in a place where people leave like clockwork, the same time every year. I love in a place where people are appreciated and Loved, gently, until they, or I, are not. Attachment has always been a struggle. Give too much, lose yourself.... Continue Reading →

Fair Well, 2020.

“You will lose someone you can’t live without,and your heart will be badly broken, and the bad news is that you never completely get over the loss of your beloved. But this is also the good news. They live forever in your broken heart that doesn’t seal back up. And you come through. It’s like... Continue Reading →

Guesswork

As each year passes, it is painfully clear to me that "You know I never looked for you" 16 years ago also means "I am not interested in knowing you, now, either", 16 years later.What I had hoped for was to be recognized, sniffed over and eventually welcomed, embraced and included. What happened was shame.... Continue Reading →

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